When I'm uplifting myself and others through tough times, I stand pulling out my old handy beliefs:
This is a moment that will pass.
I will rise above defeat. I am seen, loved, and heard.
God has a plan. Trust and wait. Stand firm and don't bend.
Rise. Fight. Keep Going. Stand Strong. Be Strong. You are special.
Everything is unfolding the way it's supposed to.
I am exactly where I'm supposed to be.
...but sometimes you can repeat these things over and over to yourself, you can listen to the most uplifting music, you can do yoga and take all the meditative walks, you can pet animals, hug sweet babies... all the things and still feel like [blah].
I feel like that right now.
What is kindness and rising above and forgiving, when you feel so hurt and betrayed.
What is faith in God and trust in his will when you feel so blinded by the walk.
What is an investment of personal principle, standards of respect and compassion when we sometimes live in a world that rewards others for doing the exact opposite.
What are we fighting for, when all we've had to do was fight.
What are we hoping for when there's no guarantee our answered prayer will even stay.
Dare I arrogantly ask God, "Why is my test so hard?"
Dare I surrender to my own weakness of being a deeply feeling human being, that feels scared sometimes, not up to the task, or frankly sometimes flat out tired of being called to task, ask God, "Why is my test so hard?"
In real time, while wiping my own tears, I don't have the answers.
so I share... wait 24 hours.
Unplug. Completely. Endure the now with rest. (even so I say this with privilege and gratitude of being able to rest)
At peace with no guarantee tomorrow will be any different, but healed and loved with 24 Hours of complete surrender and release.
You endured many, many yesterdays.
You're already committed to the now of today.
You will always be deserving a well-rested peaceful start of life tomorrow.
rest well. be well.
Let it go.
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